December 2010
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I don`t want to censor myself
I want to pull this head off my shoulders so I can think
I pull at my hair, stiff my neck, it`s still not me
I want to cry louder, my brother`s next door
I can`t take it but can`t make it stop
I wish it was obvious, I wish it was constant
I fucking wish it was in my blood tests
I want to tear at my scalp and find my own brain
I don`t believe it`s in there anymore
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I sold my emotions for alliteration
this mayhem that I am makes me weep
my own words draw sweet tears
and abet the creature`s confusion
it`s like hands in my head, behind my eyes
grasp tight on my brain and scrape my eye sockets
I forget the hands are there for short times.
tears remind me, almost nightly, nearly daily
they shape my emotions and push out the water
my own lies to myself I never told
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my dreams torment me
I pour poison onto skulls in groups of three I act in a frenzy camera zooming in, zooming out I’m confused, crazed, and depressed I see children dying but my mind’s not my own one emotion I can’t control and the rest turn strange if this sadness isn’t me what else is a lie
I see writings about me, ending alone driving away everyone I love or thought I did I pour poison...